slip of the tongue

2011-02-09T20:10:00.000+08:00

Truth is, I am scared.

2011-02-09T20:07:00.001+08:00

Even if I'm not fine, I'll still tell other people that I'm fine.

2011-02-09T20:06:00.001+08:00

You didn't even notice I was gone.

2011-02-09T20:05:00.000+08:00

I talk about you like you put the stars in the sky.

2011-02-09T19:59:00.004+08:00

I feel like I belong with you. And I feel like that's the only place where I wanna be.

2011-02-09T19:59:00.001+08:00

sad. pissed. lonely. all in one.

close your eyes for a brighter day

2010-12-07T04:24:00.002+08:00

And I'm doing just fine, I'm always landing on my feet, in the nic of time, something by the skin of my teeth. I ain't gonna stress cause the worst ain't happened yet. Something is watching over me like Sweet Serendipity.

2010-11-25T23:05:00.001+08:00

Maybe a reason why, all the doors are closed. So you could open one that leads you to the perfect road.

2010-11-25T23:03:00.002+08:00

You know why it's hard to be happy? Because you find it hard to let go of the things that makes you sad.

2010-11-25T22:55:00.001+08:00

Protect her, fight for her, kiss her, love her, hold her, laugh with her. But don’t make her fall, if you don’t plan to catch her.

2010-11-25T22:18:00.000+08:00

Confused. Which hairstyle is she carrying now?

do you see what I see

2010-11-25T22:10:00.002+08:00

Best.I.Ever.Had

2010-11-25T21:20:00.003+08:00

Everyone in your life is meant to be a part of your journey, but not all of them are bound to stay. Most often, you have to let people go.

the words don't rhyme

2010-08-25T12:25:00.001+08:00

Friends since forever. Let's count on each other till' we grow old.

pictures of you

2010-07-05T22:30:00.002+08:00

Sometimes you just need to cry and be sad. You need to break down and be torn apart. You need to learn now to pick yourself up and put yourself back together. Sometimes, the only way to be happy is to give into sadness first, cause without sadness, there’s no happiness, you would never learn to smile.

without a warning

2010-07-05T22:26:00.003+08:00

For every negative thought, prove yourself wrong. Every time you think you’re not cut for the job, make yourself be cut for it. Never allow fear to take hold of you and your dreams. Never let fear eat you, you be the one to eat fear and scare it away.

hit my place

2010-06-19T14:40:00.002+08:00

clipping wings

2010-06-19T14:20:00.001+08:00

Earthquakes can't shake us,
Cyclones can't break us,
Hurricanes can't take away our love,
but you did.

all the right moves

pretence

2010-06-17T14:53:00.002+08:00

Nothing compares.

yob reidlos uoy ssim i

like a love you show

2010-06-16T13:20:00.004+08:00

Sugar-coated cuppie cake.

heard you well

2010-06-16T13:08:00.001+08:00

I have to start feeling contented about life. I can't be wanting cookies and seeing prince charming everyday. The more I want it, the more it'll never happen. Well, that's life. It's not only rainbows and butterflies. I can be nodding, but what's really deep inside, do you know? Well, nobody asked, nobody knows.

ten million

2010-06-15T20:01:00.003+08:00

"Every man is afraid of something. That's how you know he's in love with you; when he is afraid of losing you."

Me- "WHATEVER(!!!)"

facedrop

2010-06-15T19:55:00.002+08:00

Look deep in my eyes, do I care more about your ego or my Nutella?

ka-chingzxzx

2010-06-15T19:53:00.001+08:00

One awesome one done, more other projects to go!

so where?

2010-06-15T19:29:00.001+08:00

WATER HAS NEVER BEEN THICKER THAN BLOOD

jump then fall

2010-05-14T21:31:00.002+08:00

No more toying with my heart boy, no more. I've been holding your heart like a gold. I've waited like nobody would. I've heard everything I'm not supposed to. It has been too long since you wake up on your senses. What a bitch I am to give you all my heart and will to work on it. I've went through too many unpleasant moments and I'm really too sick of it. You made it.

Did not wanna be the best for you. Just had to stick to you. Intentions gone wrong.

2010-05-04T11:00:00.001+08:00

Previous posts, not in the good state of mind? Yes, you are very right.

to be torn apart

2010-05-04T10:58:00.000+08:00

I hear his name and shiver. His voice reaches my ears and my heart breaks. I'm empty and alone and the only one who can comfort me is the only one who does not care. I should have came prepared.

not just another

2010-05-04T10:56:00.002+08:00

My heart fell out of my pocket today, into this puddle, so he picked it up, brushed it and tore it apart again. And all I could do was stand there and watch.

combine images

2010-05-04T10:54:00.000+08:00

All the world is a stage, and everyone has a part. But how was I to know which way the story'd go, how was I to know you'd break my heart?

like it or not

2010-05-04T10:38:00.002+08:00

It hasn't been good, it hasn't been better. Did you forget? The birds just won't sing and the strings just won't play. You gotta keep trying and just hold on to it. Not just made up with a petty face but also heavy, fragile heart and strong feelings.

discover my purpose

2010-05-04T09:53:00.002+08:00

"Nobody has to break my heart"

Things I am usually worried about
>working out my relationship
>waking up for school
>sitting in exams
>make my parents happy
>look good

Now, do you see yourself on my list? Keep finding.

back to the game

2010-03-31T13:06:00.003+08:00

Yes, it is time you go back to your hometown, back to start off a family cos nothing beats the comfort of being with your family. Have a smooth pregnancy back there and don't forget us here, okay? Seven years of togetherness have brought us close. The things we shared, the things you did for us. Nobody can do it like how you did. The question if you are coming back is still unanswered. You got the choice. Keep in contact on facebook! You're more than just a maid to us. Love you, Vivien.

cameras out

2010-03-31T13:01:00.001+08:00

I just gotta say that my relationship with the madrasah girls are getting better :) At least, better than what we had before.

start by falling

2010-03-31T12:36:00.004+08:00

Am I bright enough to shine in your spaces?
Between the noise you hear, and the sounds you like
Are we just sinking in the ocean of faces?

Got them results this morning. The only thing I was worried about is to have to retake the same module. Alhamdulillah, I made through all the modules. It was quite saddening that I couldn't tell bf the happy news cos he's unreachable :( It's gonna be the first thing I'll tell you when you call tomorrow. Thank you my friends who helped along the way. Results wasn't a bomb I shall say but I'm happy, still.

Right now, at this point of time, I feel quite disturbed by the expectations from my parents. Please do not expect too much. I am only turning 19 this year I have a long way to go. Those conversations we had, if It still continues, might make me just forget about my studies. True! They made me feel a whole lot older. And honestly, I am not prepared yet. Do not compare me with others cos everyone was made with different strengths and weaknesses. I beg to please not make me avoid talks with you. We are having a strong relationship and you sure wouldn't want it to fall. I love the both of you and I feel lucky to have you two but I still got the right to decide on my own. The only person who really knows where I am standing is me.

appearing like a shadow

2010-03-31T02:00:00.004+08:00

Things are patching up right well, they are supposed to be where they are supposed to stay. I'm happy I got myself right in your arms back again. Just to hear the words I need and feel right. Talks with you lately are just so wonderful. It made me feel alive and all we had to do is just keep believing that we can and we are gonna. It has to be hard for you but it is harder for me. Upteen times we keep planning on making our day together right but things just had to fall. You felt it as much as I do. No pointing fingers, just compromising as a way. I'm glad things worked out the way I wanted it to be. Please don't disappoint me.

Our monthsary is here back again. And this time round it's the blissful number fifteen. Blissful cos I get to see your face and big tummy and just be in your arms. Unlike previous months where I don't get to see you at all. Wondering what's instore for the both of us. Very unpredictable.

I love you to bits and pieces nyum nyum :-*

On top of missing you dearly, I can't wait for the road trip this long weekend with bf and my family :)

I touched petals

2010-03-23T19:55:00.018+08:00

Indonesia, Bandung '10

Off good family quality times and endless shopping

not being fabolous, just being real

2010-03-23T19:52:00.003+08:00

It takes a strong heart to love but it takes an even stronger heart to love after its been broken.

I couldn't sleep a wink

2010-03-23T17:27:00.002+08:00

We should always say what we mean, mean what we say, and make sure no words are left unspoken. Because that’s how so many hearts are broken.

"you know how i'd treasure this chance I am given. I just can't thank you more"

watch me

2010-03-05T22:03:00.001+08:00

I hate that feeling, when you feel hungry, but you don't want any food you see, and you can't figure out what food you want, and you don't think it even exists, but then you realize that what you want is to see the person you're missing.

it doesn't matter

2010-02-23T22:34:00.000+08:00

I watched from a distance as you made life your own
Every sky was your own kind of blue
i wanted to know how that would feel
and you made it so real
you showed me something that i couldn't see

you opened my eyes and you made me believe

smiles are free

2010-02-22T22:24:00.002+08:00

Every time I talk to you, I fall in love with you a little more. Even if you make fun of me and throw jokes at me sometimes, I still fall for you. But why, (insert sad faces here).

do not question

2010-02-17T22:10:00.005+08:00

Why did you have to leave just as when things were fine and I was having the time of my life. I couldn't say goodbye. I couldn't say much but I just gotta say, we'll get through this together. We'll do it together. Since it has never been me or you, well it has gotta be us. Only we can make it happen. Call me often cos your voice is the sweetest. Twenty-four days, I really need the strength.

Whisper three words and I'll come running, and boy you know that I'll be there.

carry me away

2010-02-14T12:43:00.002+08:00

Never wanted this, never wanna see you hurt. Every little bump in the road I tried to swerve. But people are people and sometimes it doesn't work out. Nothing we say is gonna save us from the fall out. And we know it's never simple, never easy. Never a clean break, YOU ARE here to save me. You're the only thing I know like the back of my hand.

Long weekend. Boyf leaving for Brunei in two days. Yes, it's painful. I've seen a friend go through such heartache. I've seen a close cousin of mine keep up a distant relationship. I've even heard of stories whereby the husband leaves the wife miles away after their wedding for work. Not all endings are pleasant. Life is like a box of chocolates, you might pick out the bitter one.

I'm sure every bumps on the road makes us stronger.

It's not only rainbows and butterflies, it's compromise..

you and I

2010-02-13T01:37:00.002+08:00

What I want is to be needed. What I need is to be indispensable to somebody. Who I need is somebody that will eat up all my free time, my ego, my attention. Somebody addicted to me. A mutual addiction.

coffee or tea, party or me?

to the morning

2010-02-13T01:09:00.002+08:00

I am me, that’s all I can be. No more, no less, don’t second guess. I laugh, I love, I live, I cry and sometimes I wish that I would die. Somedays I’m a joke, others I’m not. Sometimes I’m in overdrive and I can’t stop. You may not like me sometimes, but that's okay. Because this is me and how I’ll stay.

You greeted me with a smile and a warm hug, just as I needed it. Yes, I was surprised. Just thankful we could strike things out.

You can’t wrap love in a box, but you can wrap a person in a hug.

more than just a pretty face

2010-02-09T17:44:00.002+08:00

There are times when I want nothing more than to look you in the eyes, because it's when we're looking at each other in silence that we end up saying the most.

come, happy days

gentle

2010-02-02T21:45:00.002+08:00

My mind is blank. I miss bf :( Hoping he'll be back home on time as promised YAY

You're so far from pretty yet you are trying very hard. F= fat.

won't be easy

2010-01-29T16:50:00.001+08:00

Waking up to "what happened and what's happening" so not right.

TGIF. Bf run to me alright. I know you want me, you know I want cha!

time is running out

2010-01-29T16:29:00.002+08:00

Tik-Tok

2010-01-28T10:52:00.003+08:00

Happy 23rd! Don't sulk cos you think I forget your birthday okay. I didn't! Was just feeling unwell to bake something. I'll make it up okay? Happy Birthday and may you be blessed with love, wealth and happiness. xoxo

2010-01-27T17:59:00.005+08:00

I'm starting to feel the pressure that school has for me. Too many projects. Just too many. One after another. SIGH. I just wish I could sit somewhere comfortable with a nice view and just indulge in milkshakes and cheesecakes with the perfect companion, boyfriend. He has been too busy :( too busy that I watched his hair grew too fast. How am I gonna cope when he's in Brunei for training? Aye army boy, get it over and done with asap okay! You haven't been by my side for so long. Too add on, I haven't been attached to the games on my Iphone recently. Which cearly means, I don't even have time for myself just yet. How sad being a student nowadays!
Right now, too many cravings.

It's gotta be my destiny. Yes you are ♥
When things are rough and you feel lost, just call on me and I'll be there at any cost.

sharing, is caring.

2010-01-18T21:31:00.005+08:00

Updates:

1) Bf got very sick (again)
2) Bf was then suspected for dengue
3) I got sick too!
4) Missed two tests in a week :(
5) Missed school for days
6) Wasted too much on cabs. Gotta cut down!
7) Projects; not only one project!

I can go back to being sick and forget about everything. I need the weekends, I need it now :( But it's only Monday. How cruel. I hate life being a student. It'll be better if I could just stop schooling and earn. WHEEEEE. "Dreams are free, my darling" -Ibu's favourite line, I miss her :( webcam-ing only isn't cool.

Iphone is very distracting. Very distraction. Especially 'App Store' LOL

I miss boyf who is busy doing attacking in the jungle :( weekends, okay? ♥

My heart stays with you no matter how you irritate me in the middle of traffic jams HEHE

a brave coward

2010-01-09T14:40:00.000+08:00

tight emotional needs; i feel like a duckweed

colours

2010-01-09T14:34:00.001+08:00

happy birthday jenny the jen, big fan of carebear! best of luck turning 18. hope you felt good yesterday, your reaction was priceless! love love xoxo

where do we go from here

2010-01-09T14:23:00.002+08:00

Happy 1st Anni Love! Loving you more each day <3

first picture taken using bf's anni gift for me, an Iphone =)

I need hair treatment, it doesn't gets any better. School's a bore. First week of school and I only attended school on Monday and Friday, way to go, Nadiah!

worthy

2010-01-09T14:15:00.002+08:00

it feels good to get to spend some quality time with you, gf! more to come ~ ♥

kissed by an angel

2010-01-05T14:11:00.000+08:00

happy birthday darling twins! best wishes for your eighteenth. a year older, a year wiser, am always here if you need me. remember how we used to always gossip each time we meet! missing you girls! with so much loveeeeee, xoxo have a blast!

my only wish

2009-12-23T01:00:00.003+08:00

sleepless night. wrapped under your jacket. take care during route march. paste me on your mind. glue me to your heart. make me your strength. put me in your dreams tonight. and when you close your tired eyes, I'll meet you there.

if we can just be immobile for some time, and finally figure out the way we feel about the missing puzzle pieces and cloudy question marks that still look a bit surreal.

letters to you

2009-12-22T23:05:00.004+08:00

Just you and me, doing everything under the sun and shelter me when the rain starts pouring ♥

"tu me manques, sweetheart"

"You don’t know, but that’s okay. You might find me anyway. Don’t you know that I belong arm and arm with you baby?"

like fairytale

2009-12-22T22:56:00.002+08:00

Then the rain came pouring down. I'm drowning in my fears. As I watch the setting sun, I wonder if I'm the only one. Cause everybody tries to put some love on the line and feels a broken heart sometimes. Even when I'm scared I have to try to fly. I've got no master plan to help me out or make me stand up for, all the things that I really want, you had me to afraid to ask and as I look ahead of me, I cry and pray for sanity.

spells y-o-u

2009-12-22T22:12:00.001+08:00

I'd rather have bad times with you, than good times with someone else. I'd rather be beside you in a storm, than safe and warm by myself. I'd rather have hard times together than to have it easy apart. I'd rather have the one who holds my heart.

you will be coming back

2009-12-22T22:03:00.002+08:00

You know you can do it. Do it even better than me. But do you just choose not to? I know you'll be fine. You're part of me and if you're not strong I want to be your only strength, your laughter and your medicine, i'd do anything to make you heal and to bring you up back again. I see the sparkle of a million flashlights, I wonder why all the the stars, but the one that's shining out so bright, is the one right where you are.

I was given: Two hands to hold. Two legs to walk. Two eyes to see. Two ears to listen. But only one heart. Because the other was given to you, to always protect and bring me wherever you go.

starstruck

2009-12-21T14:33:00.006+08:00

Weekends ended :( But the tire is still on. Had too much places to go, too many things to buy during the weekends..

Friday- Karaoke and supper with family and cousins.
Saturday- Swensens lunch at Airport, Shopping at Vivo and Orchard. Christmas lightings!
Sunday- Shopping at JB. Horror movie- Santau! Effing scary.

Today is Monday and i'm being a couch potato. Saying no to jogs, and etc. Just feeling too lazy. Just watching dvds, challenge friends on Bejeweled Blitz on fb, called up macs for lunch and just being alone at home. Probably should start on something soon. Gingerbread man orders tonight! Gotta conserve my energy.

Tired but happy gobber by the night =)

diamonds and pearls

2009-12-18T17:56:00.002+08:00

The video, Bad Romance by Lady Gaga has got to be the most irritating video ever.

I can runaway from it but I can't hide it.

that's what you get if you let your heart win

2009-12-18T16:48:00.004+08:00

This has got to be such a rare look of me. Ehem ehem (Y)

I..

1) Went swimming. real swimming, no kidding
2) Jogging plans didn't happen for some reasons
3) Attended boyf's Social Night at Safti. Army is real budget. Everything so limited -.-
4) Gotta stop watching dvds.
5) Gotta visit grandparents more often.
6) Have to start having sense of directions. Can't afford to get lost at Amk Central. Goodness.
7) Town-ed with sister!!
8) Have to reduce my late night food intake.
9) Gotta start saving money!
10) Can't wait to spend quality time with family this Sunday. Without Irfan though.

God knows why dad came up with the idea for shopping and movie on Sunday. It feels so weird. My family's acting up all weird these few days. Luckily i'm close to my only sister that I can share stuffs whenever we prepare for bed everynight. It's really contradicting..

Oh well, I gotta start counting down the days I get to meet darling boyfriend :( It's been longggggg alright. Okay countdown till he books out which is on 9th Dec! 22 more days :(

-Long sigh- I gotta go catch my breathe.

my number one

2009-12-08T18:07:00.003+08:00

HAPPY 20th, BIRTHDAY LOVE!

I love the way you pick me up and spin me round and round.
I love the way you hold my hand no matter who's there.
I love the way you say my full name when you're unheard.
I love the way you tilt my chin just enough to kiss me.
I love the way you your arms fit perfectly around my waist.
I love the way you brush my hair out of my face.
I love the way you follow me everywhere just to hear me complain.
I love the way you drive me to places I've never gone to.
I love the way you feed me just to make me fat.
I love the way you wait for me like I mean the world to you.
I love the way you let me sleep on your shoulder when I'm tired
I love the way you know what is my favourite.
I love the way you follow me just everywhere even if it means watching HSM.
I love the way you have to scare me with your naughty ceiling stunts
I love the way you pretend that you're not jealous when you actually are.
I love the way you keep your eyes wide awake during a movie just to entertain my complains
I love the way you sheltered me in the rain.
I love the way you had to cover yourself up when my cousin asked who you went out with
I love the way you just talk nonsense when you're half asleep on the phone.
I love the way you look like you're interested to listen to me even when you're tired.
I love the way you act like you didn't sleep on the phone when you actually did!
I love the way you know when is the best time I need ice-cream!
I love the way you spin my nieces and nephew around and make them just cling onto you.
I love the way you rush around places on my big eighteen party just to be there and be of help
I love the way you just laugh though my jokes aren't funny.
I love the way you just have to be there for me.
I love the way you rushed down to my place when you know I'm not okay.
I love the way you just feel uneasy when my grandma keeps praising you
I love the way you just eat whatever my mum serves you even if it's something you'll never eat for life.
I love the way you just watch your ways infront of my parents
I love the way how our cute eyes just won't get sick of each other.

You impressed me with your ways of comfort the first time I cried when you're around in front of a letter.

It's just you, love! Happy 20th Birthday. As much as I wanna be with you on your day, I can't cos army took you away :'(

Oh boy, I just love you ♥

If something bad happens to us someday, it’ll never change what we have now; what we’ve always had. Cause you were right, our love is real and we have to do everything to keep it alive.

until there is no wind

2009-12-08T16:26:00.003+08:00

All I want is to be there with you. I'd do whatever it takes to least see your face at a glance. It's really taking a hell out of me. Army is! All I hope is that you feel the same way too, love! It's really a countdown for me now. Countdown till..the time comes? Sometimes I wish I could fast forward time just to see if it will all be worth it in the end. Nevertheless, the pain stays so does the wait. It's not over baby. Just call on me, I'll be right there even at four in the morning my love ;)

just a pinch of my thought, they should still be together. you can't tell if a love is virtue, the heart still determines it.

hold on, hold on

2009-12-07T21:13:00.002+08:00

What's your bloody problem? Quit seeking attention cos you ain't gonna get any even for the slightest. Your long face doesn't gets you anywhere so back off, there's no point. Stuff chillies and tomatoes into your foul mouth and keep it in the junk. You ain't gonna need it cos it doesn't bring you anywhere close.

BF CALL ME FASTER ♥

in the whole wide world

2009-12-07T18:19:00.001+08:00

The next thing i knew he was holding my hand and looking right in my eyes. My heart stopped. It just stopped beating. And for the first time in my life, I had that feeling. You know, like the world is moving all around you, all beneath you, inside you, and you’re floating. Floating in mid air. And the only thing keeping you from drifting away is the other person’s eyes. They are connected to yours by some invisible force, and they hold you fast while the rest of the world spins, and twirls, and falls completely away. If only you could see, just how much you mean to me.

common lost

2009-12-06T21:39:00.000+08:00

A four letter word, not just a four letter word.

tried to laugh

2009-12-06T21:29:00.003+08:00

the days we spent together were not enough
and it used to feel like dreaming except we always woke up
tonight I've fallen and I can't get up
I need your loving hands to come and pick me up

over where

2009-12-05T21:56:00.002+08:00

In desperate need of good news.
All i want for Christmas is you.

stealing happiness

2009-12-04T16:48:00.000+08:00

it has been ringing but there's still no sign of you

it's not a joke

2009-12-03T23:17:00.001+08:00

It doesn't move me or any one one of us, my dear!

i'm lucky i'm in love

2009-12-03T18:13:00.008+08:00

The experience this morning to see a crashing car infront of me was speechless. It still stays on my mind! I screamed! My mum who was driving luckily didn't get a shock or else i'll be late for school. I pity the lady in the car. She tried hard to not be burnt in the car and jump out from the window with seat belts unbuckled. Brave? Clever? Nah! She was at fault. It wasn't your way, lady! See what impatient drives you to? As for my mum, Elle and I, we should really feel lucky and thankgod that we're still breathing! Lives was at risk of crashing into a damn Toyota Wish!

Very tired. In need of warm hug and a cup of coffee and probably, hmm a good book?
Time to pen down entries in my lovey book!
You might not know but i miss you so

you better tell em'

2009-12-02T23:34:00.002+08:00

It's only wednesday and i'm already feeling really really tired. Life's very hectic. Especially this week. I just can't wait for the holidays. Hopefully, boyf will be able to book out more when i'm having my holidays. I mean, better than it is now! Or perhaps, rarely having fieldcamps. Oooohhh gotta know his schedule and start planning! Too many movies to catch, places to go, things to buy.

This week feels like a disaster..

SVE Roleplay assignment
TPS CA
Charity-bake-sale baking sessions
WFB CA
SVE Test
On top of everything, boyf will be away for a week and not booking out :(

Waiting at the doorway with a smile on my face and a jumping heart..

bells are ringing

2009-11-25T21:58:00.003+08:00

Perfect just the way it is! Happy 11th Monthsary boyfriend, our relationship is beautiful. Your patience is amazing. Thank you for making me feel special ♥ Absence does makes the heart grow fonder. It is even fonder now. We'll have a memorable one alright! xoxos

Done with HRA CA. Next week, TPS CA. Just praying for the best. I can't keep failing.

Boyf's booking out tomorrow, long weekend planned. Just can't wait!!!!!

To do list:

Shop for dress! ;)
Catch a movie
Have a meal together (been ages!!!)
Just keep talking & catching up

Waiting has got to be my bestfriend for now.

the arising line

2009-11-20T22:48:00.004+08:00

Nobody saw it coming. Officially the fourth person to piss me off today. Why does it has to be this way? Since you want the border, you're so gonna get it. Now, don't you think you have to look in the mirror before you just spill your words? Think about it. Yet again, respect is the most important value to have in one's dictionary. I believe it comes before everything else, even before love. Apparently you need respect to love or to be loved don't you. Maybe it's cos of love that i feel the pain. First thing's first, filter and keep in mind who you're talking to. Even a damn parrot has feelings what more me. Even a small tiny grape can wither. My friday was made worst.

Just waiting to be in cloud-nine back again. Boyf, hurry call me. It's taking too long already.

It's alright to be judgmental, but keep your judgments to yourself.

just let it sparkle

2009-11-20T15:06:00.003+08:00

I'm not having a good friday. Period.

It got really out of hand. It gets really annoying. Think before you speak. Don't drown yourself with your words. It's bloody useless. My day got even worst. It's not a pleasure, alright? You two should be kept in one roof and kill each other with your power of words.

J, we're always here for you. WG :)
I need cupcake.

don't stop, make it pop

2009-11-19T22:23:00.002+08:00

I missed you. It was by chance that i get to meet love yesterday off his hectic schedule in officer cadet school. Holding on.. It has been weeks :( Visited his grandfather at the hospital yesterday. He looks rather weak. Hope everything's gonna be alright..

Hectic day today. It's tiring to be a tourist. HAH. Had popeyes at flyers for lunch with WG. The mashed potato- my all time fav!! Watched Final Destination at Jen's house. Went home and typed a long SVE script. Done for the week? No! There's HR test tmrw and CA next week. Weekends burnt! Definitely..

"I miss you," may be cliche, but i really do. Yes you've been appearing, but on my wallpaper..

The key is not to prioritize what's on your schedule, but to schedule your priorities.

you gotta watch your hands

2009-11-17T21:37:00.000+08:00

Dee turned 18 oooh like at last. Well, happy birthday babe. Hope you enjoyed the surprise we planned for you and loved the gift(s). Looking forward to many many years of friendship xoxo.

Feeling very very shagged out of school
Projects after projects
Managed to catch up with Zee and Natt ♥
Went to have a massage with mum and aunt. Yea i do feel better, physically
I feel like i've gained weight
Jen & Elle, please shout at me whenever i wanna eat chicken chop!!
Missed 'My Sister's Keeper!!!!!!'
Need to catch up on movies.
Managed to meet boyf less than 12 hrs last week (ONLY!!!) :( :( :(
Boyf's not booking out any sooner
Sad
Sedih
Sad
Sedih

You are, you are my perfect remedy.

transform

2009-11-08T12:02:00.006+08:00

That's boyfriend during his poly days and no that kid with him isn't our daughter. HAHA am too young people! I didn't know he was that fat HEHE but he looks cute and bouncy though. Those were the days our relationship had too much roller-coaster rides. I miss this guy alot now :( And this picture of him having Syaza reminds me alot of how that kid loves following us around especially when boyfriend drives her to Lower Pierce to see the monkeys there. Good times baby :)
Judging from the picture I can very well say army has took most of his weight &&&&& time. I'm bored now :(

Mozilla Firefox is my bestfriend for now. Gossip Girls loading very very slowly. Slowly but surely..

You know you're in love when the hardest thing to do is say goodbye.
All I'm writing is just what I feel, that's all. I just keep it almost naked.
And probably the words are so bland.

2009-11-08T10:37:00.004+08:00

Thanks alot syaffy for changing my blog layout i love you mwaah mwaah

one last kiss

2009-11-08T09:47:00.001+08:00

It's kinda crazy but you look like what i want.

to what it's worth

2009-11-07T15:36:00.001+08:00

I miss short hair and un-fat cheeks :(

I said i'm gonna update about my birthday celebration(s) but i changed my mind. It's so overdued already. So, forget it, yeah?

I'm having a helluva week. Boyf's out to field for 10 days :( :( :( :( :(
Celebrated dad's birthday with buffet dinner last weekend.
Kak Fizah flew off, so gonna miss that maknenek.
Week in school is hectic.
I hope boyf received the letter i posted. Just don't cry upon reading it!
It's saturday and i'm home.
I woke up crying to myself about a sad dream and my thoughts were burning.
My dad talked to me about learning to cook this morning so that my future-husband won't have to eat soup everyday. -.-
I spring-cleaned my bedroom.
Mum bought kfc and my favourite part is only the mashed potato. It makes me feel teeth-less
Something funny, nenek said "nenek tengok gambar korang kat 'pesbok'!! It took me awhile to figure it out what 'pesbok' is. Until my dad corrected her, "FACEBOOK LA" HAHAHAHHA funny or what
I received 'prank sms' from my grandfather. I wasn't own. But was just playing along with it. Great sense of humor, tok!
Four more days baby do run home to me ♥

I need a getaway, a perfect getaway.

racing hearts

2009-10-25T04:22:00.002+08:00

To Jen & Elle, "I'm finally updating!"

Alright, the good news first
1) I turned eighteen.
2) I was in bf's warm arms when the clock striked 12 ♥
3) I had the party of my life which lasted till after midnight
4) Wondergirls surprised the october girls. It was so sweet of them masterminds. ♥

On the sad note,
1) Bf's not coming home for the weekends :'(
2) Irfan been hospitalised since Tuesday!
3) Tok Cik passed away yesterday.
4) It's too much to handle!

Happy 10th Monthsary baby, you've been wonderful xoxo (x123456789)

Gonna be back with them pretty photos in the next update. Promise!

It's you who has been on my mind.

take two

2009-09-30T14:51:00.001+08:00

Those pictures are from Hari Raya day 1.

Selamat Hari Raya to muslims all around the world. I had a good raya myself, being with my relatives and special ones. Maaf Zahir Batin, yea everyone? I've been eating alot during raya that i feel like throwing up each day.

You know you wished hard.

like this love

2009-09-02T10:48:00.001+08:00

Fasting month is here already, how fast the time flies but it's not fast when it comes to break-fast time. The wait can be a killer at times.

Can't think of any way to be creative right now, so here's just a simple update,

1) Met up with Laiyyinaa the birthday girl. Oh and Happy 18th babe. Have a fab one. Love much.
2) The screwed OFA exam. ERGH
3) Kenny Rogers with Taufiq for break-fast ;)
4) Room spring-cleaning done and next comes the painting!
5) Met lover-boy who was on MC for three days, played UNO and laughed till we drop, roamed around NTUC aimlessly.
6) Movie date- The Proposal and Year One (not on the same day) The Proposal is a really touching movie while Year One is a real hilarious movie starring Jack Black the funny kickass dude plus i find Olivia Wilde very pretty in the movie.

And now..it's back to school :(

Taufiq's getting skinnier day-by-day. Is it just him or is it called NS?

Am i just the hi-bye person now? Do take everyone else's feelings in consideration before you just act. And picking is as good as dumping. You get me, now?

be a believer

2009-08-24T20:38:00.001+08:00

Thanks for listening. I feel blessed :)

blooming flowers

2009-08-24T18:49:00.002+08:00

There's seriously a love-hate-affair stinging at home. I wonder why. Everyone's quiet and nobody's changing. I don't really like the idea of all of us looking at our own gadgets, doing our own thing when we're under one damn roof. Where has everything gone to.. I was actually gonna tell you a good news and you shut me off. It's okay if you can't react to it but shutting it off makes it worst. ___ has always been working and i do miss him really, it sucks that he's not home often :(

I thought i could turn to you?

so beautiful

2009-08-21T10:25:00.007+08:00

As i pull up my blue socks yesterday, i merely thought about the things that will be happening to me.

1) Accounting CA. Yesssssssssss it went well.

2) Cmb presentation. At last i presented my part and next to start worrying about is the role-play that will be taking place next week onwards.

3) Nurul Azreen eighteen's birthday celebration. She may be small and cute but she's the eldest among us. Happy birthday Nurul, hope you had a blasting pizza party :)

My mum who is known as a shoe, handbags and accessories addict dragged me for shopping in town yesterday. We had a great dinner and then shopped with our happy stomach. My sissy bought a really really nice shoe at Charles & Keith and i really wanted that but she got it first :( :( :( I've always been a step back from my sissy. She's a real sissy.. Oh did you know that there's dunkin donuts at ION orchard! HAHAHA we don't have to travel across the causeway to get it already.

I wished the moment during the later part of the day didn't happen. Am i just a great disappointment or I haven't tried enough? Nevertheless, on the happier note, you're booking out today. We really really have to meet and catch up on things. I love you ♥

cos you meant the world

2009-08-19T18:36:00.002+08:00

I thought by wearing my favourite pink socks today will make my day a good one. But i thought wrong. Instead, it was the other way round.

To start off, the cab that i took this morning met with an accident. 1) YES, I WAS IN THE CAB. 2) YES, I JERKED TO THE FRONT 3) YES, I WAS GIVEN $2 DISCOUNT BY THE UNCLE.

Secondly, i was soooo looking forward to presenting my CMB thingy. But no, it's not my turn again today. So pissed.

WHAT A DAY. HMPHHHHH

I took a bus home today instead of cab cos i'm kinda scared of the incident in the morning. GRR laugh all you want, readers.

Accounting paper tmrw at eight, how am i gonna wake up DAMNITMFCKER.

Off to do balance shit (sheet) k thanks bye.

you spin my head

2009-08-18T20:57:00.000+08:00

I was blank when my mum handed me a letter from Aloha Loyang chalet that says "your booking for Garden Bungalow on the 16th-18th October is confirmed." i was actually blank when she handed me that letter. wait, to start off she actually asked me over dinner, "this year you're turning 18 right, be a better girl" i was like, ohh okay i sure will. hehehe. so now you ppl know what's this all about? oh just fyi, couldn't celebrate on my birthday itself because sissy's having her core exams! keypo!

i really hope my dad would really change the matrix car for me. i wanna drive round and round in my own preferred car and not the one he chooses for me. humphh. i'm so ambitious. i haven't even gotten my driving license yet. ha ha

When it hits you, you feel no pain

2009-08-18T20:11:00.000+08:00

You're not just another stranger. You should know me well, don't you?

It was a hard line to walk.

2009-08-18T19:32:00.000+08:00

I can't even persuade my parents for a goddamn new phone but sissy the bugger did. A cliche line, "life is unfair". I'm seriously getting out of hand in my studies. It's getting tougher and exams are nearing. Today is the first time i did something i've never done before. Duh, it's my first time. Walked around Orchard Rd approaching people to complete surveys. Dang.

The only way to get through everything is holding on.
I just feel so contented with you around.
I'm tired but yet i'm trying.
I hope you do too.

I may forgive but i can't forget..

I will, i must!

2009-08-15T00:25:00.000+08:00

Taufiq: Maybe i can't book out today.
Me: HURHHHHHHHHHHHHH WTF!!!!!!!!!!!!!

-hours later-

Taufiq: Dear i reaching your place at around 5.
Me: I was punk'd?

Damn it, i thought i won't be seeing you this week. Dah love sick pun. Hehe.
Tomorrow is sooooo gonna be a better day with you. ♥

If you would consider

2009-08-14T02:09:00.000+08:00

Thank god it's friday. I'm really missing my boyfriend :(
I'm gonna drag him out of camp we're gonna have ice-cream together and drive around town :)
I can't wait!

A week has past and i'm sooo not in the pink of health. I hate it when i vomit. It really stinks. gross! I attended only two days of school this week; on Thursday and Friday. I have a presentation on Monday (godpleasehelpme!) I hope it'll go well. Insya'allah. I'm really envy those who have presented. Not fairrrrrr.

Being under the care of my grandmother when i was sick, i invaded cousin's laptop and found few nice shots taken when our cute nephew, Hazriq, came to visit us in Singapore and we brought him to 'Ben 10 Live Omnitrix Overload' at United Square, lunch at Pizza Hut, Bowling at Kallang, Jalan-jalan at Orchard, and lastly Sentosa.

I must've been really patient to have uploaded that much photos!

What about a warm hug and hot chocolate, sweetheart?

like the songs of the sea

2009-08-06T18:48:00.000+08:00

yes yes i really did moved from livejournal to blogspot. can't make up my mind. i just found out that i can't really do lots at livejournal. i tried editing my page but it didn't came out good and got me all so mad. and the ads by the side of the page got me all so fed-up that i feel like having mushroom swiss burger now. grr yes i'm a mad mad mad lady now.

the smell of chicken rice in my room is really annoying me now. i hate it when my sissy just eats everything in the room. sounds piggy much?

caught 'The Hangover' last week with Taufiq and oh it's a must-watch movie!

effing sad sad video :( i almost cried.